M68040 [they/them]

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Cake day: November 24th, 2022

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  • I’m torn between “All assimilationists can go to hell” and “This isn’t really my wheelhouse so that’s fine, the means of gaining a foothold aren’t gonna necessarily look the same in two different places that need to approach the issue in very different ways”

    Part of the reason I like pride as a breakaway culture is that it functions as a sort of dual power - Lets me find community and partake in institutions that very pointedly aren’t beholden to heavily conservative, often very christian American cultural norms. At the best of times, hanging around these circles is a glimpse of what my life would be like if I wasn’t subject to the local cultural hegemons.

    the idea that someone might genuinely not be irreparably disgusted with their own country’s culture, and in fact might actively want to participate in it or even identify with it, is admittedly borderline eldritch to me.






  • I’m curious as to how people toughed it out despite most christian religious institutions being so uniformly corrupt and plain irritating. Shit, the crowd FSTDT dunks on, american politicians, and internet theology were all it took for me to get so deeply disillusioned I wanted to just cut strike everything from my mind, regardless of who’s right or wrong. Merely not having other options to a point where leaving is unthinkable? Fear of reprisal from legal and cultural consequences?

    Then again, I suppose at that point they would’ve just shifted to a different, less institution-focused denomination instead of just saying “fuck the whole thing” like I did. It wasn’t a matter of the facts, it was a matter of me being fucking sick of them.