

I read your post as well, but was also unsure of what to say. For a conversation like this face-to-face, the most useful thing I can do is to listen.
I’m not sure why others would downvote. In moments like these it’s more important to be supportive and understanding than trying to repress or ignore these thoughts.
I’m sure many others listen and care, but don’t know how to lend support. I hope you’d forgive them for that. I hear you.
I’ve been on this road for a very long time. It does get better.
Be kind to yourself, and surround yourself with people working towards common goals and who want the best for you.