SterlingPooper [none/use name]

if you think my username sucks wait til you read my comments

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Cake day: July 27th, 2020

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  • neurospice adventures continue

    In a vicious cycle getting used to Adderall again. Today I wasn’t able to shower or get dressed, but I sent two job applications (something I have been putting off) and am going to try to get to the store for some actually filling foods.

    So much pent up energy and it’s like the walls of my mind palace are all swaying back and forth. My emotions are calm again, though, as much as I’m struggling to physically do things.

    The time honored tradition of laying on the floor has been deeply helpful. Today, this is productivity. If I don’t eat, I will always be hungry.






  • old update

    Amidst being dragged in other parts of the site, I’m just trying to adjust to taking my Adderall again after forgetting it for the entirety of last week. I’ve been getting like 4 hours of sleep, and I’m pretty much always shaky. Been getting more exercise which helps, but like, my brain feels weird and as usual, I’m alone with my thoughts.

    Gonna go stand in a field or something.

    edit: I stood in a field, watched the sunset. looked at the trees and berries, took pictures. i feel calmer, at least.

    I never know how to handle myself after my emotions take over. I feel guilty for expressing anything. the fact that I don’t have, like, someone close I can talk to IRL, I blame myself. It’s an indictment on my social skills and interpersonal skills, I did all of this to myself.