Did you crosspost this on Reddit? This feels familiar

I mean, obviously I don’t mean to come off as suicidal but death is the absence of pain, suffering, and work, so I don’t think it’s bad, it’s just letting yourself rest without worrying about the stresses of life. Existence kinda sucks, especially if it were to be prolonged beyond finding meaning in existence. The limitations of existence makes it meaningful. I think I would be the most miserable person on the planet if I had to live eternally.

Go full Diogenes /s

But seriously you should reach out to a local homeless shelter, your municipality/social services and to friends who can lend a couch. You could rent a two bedroom place jointly with a local, as that might give you preferential treatment by proxy.