This isnāt atypical, professors email their students a lot and I personally donāt have a problem with it. The reason why Iām writing here is because of the contents of said email. Donāt worry, itās nothing illegal.
Some of you might remember me writing about a library display where some of the posters had the OUN flag. I went to two of my professors about it (history and political science) to see if they knew anything about the display itself and the flag. To make a long story short the answers I got were disappointing, they didnāt know anything. I went the slightest extra mile with my history professor as he actually looked up what the flag was during our meeting. I went to him the next day to push a bit more on how it might be inappropriate to display neo-Nazi images in our school. I donāt want to go over every detail but if you are new and want to know everything or just need a refresher here are the posts: Part 1 and Part 2
So, resuming after that, it has clearly been a little while since Iāve had this conversation with my history professor and I honestly thought this would be the end of such a shitty saga, but yesterday he emailed me about it. At the end of our last meeting he claimed he wasnāt an expert on Ukraine so he is not the best authority to be asking, I brought up Ivan Katchanovski as an authority saying maybe Iād just read his works. He was unfamiliar with Dr. Katchanovksi so I spelled out his name as my professor seemed curious (he even wrote it down) and in turn he told me to look into Timothy Snyder. Our chat ended there and I thought that was it, but it wasnāt.
When I looked at my school email yesterday I saw one from him (special notifications for my professors so I donāt miss anything important) and the subject line referenced Katchanovski and the red and black flag. I wont write the email verbatim but i will do my best to give an accurate retelling:
āHello SpaceDogs,
Because of our last office hours together when you brought up issues about the red and black flag and Ivan Katchanovski, I wanted to take them to the head of the Ukrainian āclub.ā I made sure not to out your name or class so you can be certain none of this will connect back to you. I directly pasted his thoughts below, and because I am not an expert on this topic I cannot help much but I encourage you to read far and wide and critically. Context is important. Scholars like William Risch have issues with Katchanovskiās arguments. Of course, we should listen to fringe ideas, but one must be careful with them and consider differing perspectives.
Regards,
Professorā
So Katchanvoski is fringe, huh? Well, as you can see this isnāt the greatest start and I was honestly shocked when I saw this email in my inbox, I donāt remember ever alluding to wanting him to investigate for me, but I guess my pathetic attitude made him pity me. I will be honest, when I read the subject line I was a little excited, thinking he had contacted Katchanovski for me, but when I read the full email I saw that wasnāt the case.
I am sure you are all curious about what the head of the āclubā said. Again, I cannot write verbatim but I will summarize:
The head of the club has many issues with Katchanovksiās perspective. He claims that Katchanovksi is very in line with the Russian governmentās narrative and those on the academic left are eating it up. He (the head of the club) rejects both the idea that Ukraine is a proxy for NATO and that the US planned the Maidan coup. He says Katchanovskiās sniper argument is interesting. But he has many issues with all of this stuff. He cites William Rischās critique of Katchanovski and links it: https://commons.com.ua/en/rozstrili-na-majdani/
for a shorter piece he gives this one: https://kyivindependent.com/euromaidan-murders-case-why-is-the-verdict-criticized-and-why-is-it-about-russia/
This next part is difficult for me to write but he goes on to compliment Rischās piece as it acknowledges that the whole ordeal was very complicated and messy, he even makes a little comment about Katchanovski making a big deal over one supposed sniper. Some state actors and academics are taking advantage of the situation to form their own narratives.
He asserts that other things Katchanovski has written about are completely wrong, especially when it comes to the Donbas: it wasnāt a civil war, they were Russian backed separatists who had so little public support that they only gained ground after Russian soldier boots hit the ground. He cites Serhy Yekelchyk for the Russian troops in Crimea and other parts of eastern Ukraine. There is no incident of Ukrainians ever wanting to separate and join Russia. He says it is more similar to Quebec and Albertaās issues with the Canadian feds. There is a right wing presence in Ukraine but it is not that pervasive, especially not in the military and government. There are more far right wingers in Western Europe and North American than in Ukraine.
About the flag, he links this article: https://kyivindependent.com/everything-you-didnt-know-about-ukraines-flag/
He summarizes the article, how back then it had nothing to do with fascism and was more about resistance. Resistance to who? Itās not clear as it was the 12th century and both Russian and Ukraine did not exist. It is correct that the UPA uses the flag, it is not intended to be fascist, although some divisions did fight alongside the Nazis. But they only did that because they wanted to be free from the Soviets (he then brings up the holodomor as a reason why). But they eventually turned away from the Nazis as they saw that they (Nazis) didnāt actually care about Ukraine. He doesnt know about any anti-Semitism from the group but cites Snyderās Bloodlands as a piece to read. Some of the UPA were in line with the fascists but that did not last. Even with such a messy history it is safe to assume that those who wear the flag do not align with fascists and just want to express Ukrainian resistance to imperialism (which it has a long history of fighting against).
Thatās it. Thatās the email.
Iām going to be completely honest with you all, this was the catalyst for me. This is what finally did me in and caused me to break down. I havenāt cried in so long but this is what did it. I couldnāt hold it in anymore and just let the tears and sobs out.
I know I sound pathetic and a passerby liberal or conservative will read this and look down on me, call me a psychotic tankie who canāt handle the truth. I get it, I do. But this moment just cemented the fact that I am in a horrible institution and am truly alone.
Iām fringe, just like Katchanovski, and I have no one else here like me.
I donāt know why he would email me this. He had good intentions, I know, but god does it suck. I thought our conversation was done. I knew I was alone and I was the only person i could ever rely on, but this just for some reason made it worse. This is so much more than an uphill battle for me, Iām practically scaling a steep cliff.
Rest assured I did not respond, and from what I can tell he sent it after our class. I wonder if he noticed how off Iāve been this week. Who knowsā¦
The last thing Iāll do is drop out, so donāt worry about that, but this has just gotten a lot more complicatedā¦
I really wish he hadnāt said anything because now I feel even more unsafe. I confided in him before telling him that I felt unsafe and like a walking contradiction in this school (stupid of me, I know), and he said that its a shame fringe ideas arenāt accepted here since a university should be a place that fosters free speech. He even promised that heād defend me if I ever spoke up in class and got dogpiled. Looks like that was a lie. Sure, Iāve never spoken up in class with something that would require him to defend me, but why would I when I was emailed with this shit? Now Iām more isolated and fearful than ever before, I donāt know if that was his intent, maybe he was genuinely trying to help, but it clearly backfired. He really fucked me over.
Iām glad Iām not crazy for reacting the way I did, because at the time I truly felt like I was. But thats what gaslighting is, I guess.
I donāt think itās helpful for him to keep calling your perspective āfringeā either, as if an accurate understanding of the world is fanatical.
Though I do wonder what heād respond to a student that sent him Nazi apologia - would he push back against them too? Would he even recognize it as Nazi apologia at all? Surely he must be getting some because his class dedicates a week to the āholodomor genocideā. Considering that, I wouldnāt hold what he says in high regard on anything related to Ukraine, the USSR or communism in general. Why keep listening to someone who has proven their ignorance yāknow?
Youāre not crazy! Western countries rely on nonstop gaslighting to function really.