The only way I can cope with how miserable and hopeless my life is, is by living in a fantasy world most of the time, imagining my life is totally different. And by holding on to the thought of suicide as an escape when it becomes just too intolerable.

my mental health is long gone, i can’t help sorry :(

maybe video games but those cost mone- y’arrrrr get ye down t’yer local shore and get yeself qbittorrent, the mightiest ship, ye be sailing down to free media heck y’ahh at- cough i am sure you know how to do that.

i don’t even try to keep myself “sane”, i always feel like i am the opposite without trying to be ableist. i am seen as the opposite of that word by most, but i feel ok alone, until i don’t. i feel ok with my friends, as little as i have, until i don’t

if you have a hobby you enjoy, do that. just do what you like, there’s always hope no matter how dark the world may be. mine is video games, shitposting and rarely drawing. if yours is reading theory, you can do that. anything you like, any hobby, do it. time is not wasted if you enjoy what you do

Some dude killed an insurance agency CEO. So there’s that.

Physical fitness, with long-term goals.

Participate in sport that includes community.

Sobriety.

Good nutrition. (My weak spot)

I’ve accepted collapse as inevitable and have spent many years watching it happen. The system isn’t rational. It treats humans as exploitable disposable resources. It treats the natural systems we depend on for our lives as exploitable resources to be used up and converted into numbers in a bank account. It concentrates power and influence in the hands of those who want nothing more than to maintain the system that benefits them and nobody else. The system will collapse in the same way that the last cinders of a house collapse after it has burned down. We have enjoyed many thousands of years of stable climate but the holocene is coming to an end. Globalism is coming to and end, because most places on the globe will soon be uninhabitable. And it’s entirely the fault of capitalism, or perhaps the selfishness and psychopathy that brings about systems like capitalism. And there is no escape. The best you can hope for is to disentangle yourself from it as much as possible so you don’t get so burned in the collapse. For years I’ve been trying to reduce external dependencies, grow my own food, pay off debts, mortgage, haven’t bought a new car for twenty years. I don’t know exactly what I’m preparing for, but I expect it to be unpleasant. It’s become a mission of a sort. A purpose.

I’m not actually sure I’m keeping my sanity. But I don’t want to be part of a system that I know is insane. And while I haven’t fully extricated myself from it, I do have a plan, and it helps keep me from completely loosing my mind.

Sim racing, various video games, D&D, sometimes I just allow myself to have a full breakdown and try to rally the next day.

Bird watching innit

Also lifting, enjoying nature, hiking, (making) music, spending time with family and friends. It’s hard to not let society get you but I find my hobbies help a lot. If I’m freezing my nuts of while sitting still for two hours in a bird watching house near a lake I tend to not think about capitalism for a while.

Every Sunday I spend 4 hours playing Pathfinder with my friends. It’s both human contact and escapism from this sorry world.

Plus I smoke a lot of weed.

I disconnect to some degree. You can probably track my days off as to when I am active on this site, because I tend to not post for a couple day stretches at a time.

As to what I actually do in said downtime, I play board games with my partner and I do a lot of cooking. Weekdays get the simple quick recipes, but I do more elaborate things on my days off. I do a lot of Italian and Chinese food, some Japanese or French. I have a few other hobbies too: I vape and make all my own liquids which can be fun to experiment with, I have recently started getting into TTRPGs though lack many people to play with.

More generally speaking, I have gotten very good at learning who is worth engaging with. I can pretty quickly identify “misguided liberal who has a potential socialist future” from “diehard lifelong lib”. The latter I don’t bother engaging with anymore, but the former I am happy to have discussions with. It’s a better use of my time and less taxing on mental health in the longterm.

guitar

A vape, a case of high-strength IPAs and a lot of good smoke.

In all seriousness, talking to my neighbors and friend’s family and slowly targeting and dismantling their views on our system is cathartic. Even if I’ve had the same conversation over and over again with different people, being able to make an impact on how they think is important to me. Donating food and handing it out, doing work for my local, etc.

If you own a gun or want to, remmys are a blast and incredibly stress relieving.

I don’t most of the time. What we can do is hope and organise. The time will come. Younger people are more left than ever. Eventually Capitalism will breakdown. Be ready to fill that void.

Dangerous action sports. I fucking send it and have good life insurance.

Working for my community, I like gardening and helping clean the community pantry. Work with people that care more about people than money and you’ll center yourself outside of capitalism.

But before that, almost ridiculous amounts of escapism. I don’t recommend that approach.