Have a great day 👍
Snuck a cheeky can of bourbon into the cinema instead of buying a ludicrously expensive softdrink. Damn The Man. Break the system.
#dontcallmeahero #therevolutionstartshere
You rebel!
Well the furballs are in cat jail and I’m packin my shit for a trip to Yarrawonga
Cheers
Have a safe trip Jeff ☕
Oh you’re driving 🙌
I have Easter lunch tomorrow so I’ll have a drink when I get back home.
Yazzawozza! I’ve never been but I’ve always loved the name. So easy to boganify
Damnit U beat me. Cheers!! 🍺
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I’m going to the CBD later to grab some shoes and some t-shirts.
I haven’t left my outer suburb in a couple of weeks. It’s always a shock to the system being around so many people all at once.
I do so miss it though. Once I’m re-established I’m moving closer to the city. Maybe st.kilda again.
The city scares me. I’ve been there at 3am on a Saturday morning far too many times for my own good
Same, don’t go to the city often and it’s always so busy. I used to work in the city about 15years ago and don’t remember it being as busy, maybe it’s because there’s lots more residential around CBD and inner suburbs. My ideal living location would be close to city but also quiet area with some garden and tress around, which of course is contrary to inner city density and I’m not rich enough for that kind of extravagance.
There’s some lovely leafy pockets in East Melbourne and Carlton. Both areas are stupid expensive, however.
Go to Pasta Khan Dolan Uyghur for lunch! (Attempt 2)
something entirely out of my hands has gone through so i can now continue with my life and go easy on that productive procrastination
I spoke to a HR person in the IT industry earlier today.
She said for a role, they usually get 40 resumes. Now they’re getting 300.
Fucking hell.
Wonderful. I start active job hunting tomorrow now that I’ve gotten all my affairs in order.
I’ve been looking since November and have had 3 interviews. After at least 500 or so applications
i’m not looking into IT, pretty much just any non-call center office job, preferably in the city
Work goals kicked today. Got some kudos from higher ups that I never deal with.
Feel good, but also now they’ve put a face to my name and I cannot remain hidden behind and email signature.
Also hate setting the bar high
Depression lapse sucks. Today I am going to be reading and rereading the chapter on tolerance of ambiguity and other cognitive ways of thinking.
This one is a hard nut to crack, my thinking is too fast, I can’t see where the wrong thinking starts. I need to peel back the layers until I can get to the problem.
I know meditation and somatic stuff isn’t for everyone but when I hit a wall in the CBT thing of ‘see, intercept and change the thought’ I got (and get) a lot out of somatic stuff. Breathing, feeling where it hurts, not questioning just feeling through it. I can chuck you a couple of references if you want. I have some deep grief stuff that I will always carry as a pattern and in some ways that’s ok with me. For me those things are to be felt and held then placed back in their place. I kinda go back and forth between the two (CBT/somatic).
100% have my sympathy about fast moving mind. That’s the problem with feelings - they happen down there in your nervous system and it’s so fucking fast.
rant about ex
I keep thinking about that stupid DM my ex sent me on Reddit, and I was getting annoyed that it was still on my mind. Like, why am I angry at it?
I realised it’s because, despite claiming to have grown since we split, she is still just as self-centred as usual. She hasn’t grown, or changed. This is just the same text-wall shit they would send me while I was at work, listing all the reasons I suck and am bad, and expect me to reply instantly and if I didn’t I was accused of cheating. Like, same shit, just without the accusations of infidelity.
That DM was better off journalled and shown to their therapist tbh. They acknowledge they weren’t a great person, but in the same sentence claim I wasn’t either. Like, that isn’t anything, nothing substantial. Just “I was bad… But so were you!!”
Stupid motherfucker, dumbass, shitstained cunt. She already lives rent free in my head due to CPTSD, like get out of my DMs you fuck knuckle. Does your girlfriend know you sent that drivel to me at 3am on a Monday morning?? Go pay attention to her ffs. You claim to have read my Reddit comments, why did you feel the need to send me that after I told everyone on there you’re a rapist abuser? Fuck off with that shit you slimeball.
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The effects of other people can really linger in our minds. If you no longer want contact, a simple reply of something like ‘I don’t want to revisit our past, or have any further contact. Please don’t contact me again’ and then block number. Message is useful because it’s closure for you and sets a clear boundary, but if you think it’s better for your mental health to not reply at all, just block number and say good bye to that part of your life.
so many hugs
and time for new reddit accounts
I 🖤 my locals. Swapped many books, borrowed a ladder, lent a pruning saw. Acquired mulberries, gifted plums.
Can’t afford to buy here. Arse.
I just ate a cold cross bun 😈
You obviously can’t follow instructions
They don’t follow pricing instructions.
They are supposed to be one a penny, two a penny.
So a penny is now worth approximately $4 …
Touché
that’s 1730s pricing
So I have possibly two opportunities here for my other 3 days…
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Flexible work that is casual and pays well but is absolutely braindead and will not further my career whatsoever, would be working solo or with other casuals who I probably won’t give a crap about. And requires regular interstate travel. Still, unlikely to burn out as I can choose to not work whenever I want, and lots of upcoming work in the May-June period.
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Permanent PT work that makes better use of my skills. Will require commitment, is more challenging but could also be mentally/emotionally taxing, higher chance of burning out if I’m not careful. Definitely no scope to be as flexible as #1 in terms of taking time off. But is based close to home, will definitely advance my career, work with very well regarded professionals. Haven’t discussed pay.
I don’t need permanent employment right now - ideally just need to make bank before July and then take it easier for a year while I finish my degree - plus I love being able to go somewhere different each time, and the flexibility is REALLY tempting, like massively so, on a practical and personal level… I don’t actually want to go back to full time hours really.
I would’ve gone for #1 straightaway if not for #2 cropping up first.
But having heard #2 out, it does seem like a better medium to long term option and could make me feel more fulfilled and connected IF I manage my time and energy right. I’m torn!
I call braindead work work that leaves my mind free to think what I ever want.
I definitely appreciate that breathing space especially as the work is not desk based (but also not physically taxing). I wouldn’t do it forever but it is a nice option in between, wish I’d found out about it earlier this year tbh.
I’m having a hard time braining flexible and regularly interstate at the same time. That needs forward planning surely?
It’s flexible in that there’s no commitment to ongoing work on either side. I could go for 3 days one week and then not the next, if that makes sense. Rather than having to commit to 3 days every week for months
How much time do you have to think about your options?
Ultimately It’ll come down to your wellbeing and health vs needing fancial stability.
Option 1 could be great if it continued on for awhile and also the flexibility it offers.
Option 2 would give you stability, possible advancement and longer term work at the cost of a higher emotional load and loss of flexibility. Being close to home also would be a plus in my book.
I have a couple of weeks to decide on option 2. If I go with option 1, I will need to shift my current working days to accommodate, but that may take a few extra weeks, so no immediate cash sadly.
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Have highly aggravated my hands, first day of holiday shall be neither murdering garden nor sewing sofa as planned. Guess I need to find something on the box to vege out at.
hugs, sore hands is not fair
Thanks, my own stupid fault this time.
Wow. Feel like I packed three weeks into those four work days. Stoped off for a meal on the way home. Laying low this weekend so can shout myself a meal and a drink. 🥂🥂
🍺CHEEEERS🍺
I’m saving mine for tomorrow night but cheers anyway ☕
got through 1 & 1/2 episodes of the new Invincible last night. Man that show is effective at making you feel things.
